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2005-04-11T23:01:02Z

Go here: www.livejournal.com/users/soeljumner

In Hell, Well maybe pergatory.

2004-10-12T03:00:21Z

I am in Jill's dorm right now and you can slice the tension in this dorm with a dull butter knife. Jill's roomate is Jasmine one of the biggest bitches I have ever seen. SHe is totally treating Jill like shit. It's like Jasmine feels that this is actually her dorm and Jill just gets to live in it, if she does not move from her computer desk (one of the only things Jill is allowed to touch in the room). I cannot believe that one human being could act like this towards another. Then she has to have her mother come over to "have her back" I guess.

Anyway, the play Jenny and I are in with Future Waiters of America is going great. We had practice tonight and have another one on Thursday. We asked the director, a really cool guy named Adrian, to be one of our ushers. He was totally excited. I was kinda worried that he would find it weird or something.

That's all for now!

Ehh....

2004-10-04T14:24:39Z

Life is not so high in the clouds as it has been in the past few days or so. However Jenny and I have become part of this amazing group on campus. Future Waiters of America. THey are a new (and the only) acting troupe on campus. They are doing a play called The Actor's Worst Nightmare and... Jenny and I were cast to be part of it! How awesome. Now granted there were only two guy parts and only two guys that really tried out, I don't like to really think about that, but I figured I should mention it.

Today will be my first day at childtime so I will let you (whoever that might be) know how that goes. Jenny is wonderful and intelligent and she is making the greatest documentary ever! It is about Homosexuality/Christianity. We did some interviews at this church and got some PRICELESS material.

Anyway gotta start my day!

I hate hurricanes

2004-09-27T20:23:49Z

I hat eit when I have to go a whole day without seeing Jenny. It's depressing. It shows me what life would be like if I did not have her in my life. I just sit on home on the computer or watching movies or reading and just wasting my life away. I hate this hurricane because it is the reason i have not been able to see her today. Ahhh!!! I have not spokenm to her since this morning it sucks!

Life is good......Finally

2004-09-24T19:35:12Z

Oh my good ness life is going really good in the last hour. First things first Jenny and I did not make it to be in Popcorn :-( BUT Jenny found out why. At FCCJ some students have Talent scholarships which require that they be in a certain amount of plays and things, so since there were only 9 parts the director was forced to give the parts to students with said scholarship. SUCKS right?

Anyway in the last hour Jenny got out of class (this is a regular occurence, but exciting still), I got my new job at Playtime, and I do not have to go to work tomorrow because of the hurricane WOOOHOOOOO!!!!

So these are the reasons life is good in the past hour.

slientbutdeadly @ 2004-09-23T15:04:00

2004-09-23T19:05:05Z

Well, Jenny and I went for the second day of Auditions for popcorn on Tuesday and that was a bad idea. We saw a lot of good actors that night and got quite discouraged. One pro is that I got to read again on stage for the director's character.

Anyway just 2 MORE HOURS until we know whether or not we made it!

I cannot stand it Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

Oh I had a job interview for probably like totally like the greatest place to work ever. It is called Childtime and it is in the OP Mall. It is basically a babysitter for in the mall. Parents can get the kids out of there hair and go see a movie or go shopping without the nuisance of the little brats. This is good for all of us who have ever experienced a screaming kid at the climax of Spider-man 2.

So that is life at the moment.

Bye!

I'm there...

2004-09-21T03:53:26Z

Well, guess what folks in my opinion I'm there and I have decided to check into a motel there.

Jenny and I tried out for this awesome play called Popcorn tonight. It is so unconventional when it comes to plays found around Jacksonville. It is rated R for violence, language, and partial nudity(people in their underwear). I had sooo much fun tonight and the reason for my bold statement at the beginning is that I had everyonme congratulating me after I had done my reading. It was awesome! I loved every minute of it. Now the hard part is that I have to wait until THURSDAY to find out whether or not I made it. Jenny was soo awesome as well. She nailed the role she read for and I think she is really the only option when it comes to casting. So, now I am gogint o try to come off of cloud nin and go to bed.

Goodnight sweet world!

slientbutdeadly @ 2004-09-20T02:03:00

2004-09-20T06:11:53Z

Saw this in Jenny's LJ and decided I would post it too.

1. Take your LJ username and replace each letter with the corresponding number (A=1, B=2, etc.)

S=19
L=12
I=9
E=5
N=14
B=2
U=21
T=20
D=4
E=5
A=1
D=4
L=12
Y=25

2. Add all of the numbers together to create a kind of super number.
153

3. Make a note of the first digit of this number, then add the digits of the number together.
1+5+3=9

4. Find the post of this number in your LJ. If you don't have that many posts, add the digits together again. Keep doing so until the number is smaller than your pathetic number of posts.
9th post=June 16th, 2004 @ 08:08 pm

5. Take the digit you noted in step 3, and count that many words into the post.
Did

6. Use the resulting word in a Google Image Search, and post the first result:

You're not quite there yet....

2004-09-20T05:48:13Z

THese were the five words uttered to me by the director of the play I auditioned for this afternoon. I am a good reader, but apparently I should look into trying out HER that's right HER acting class and then maybe I could be made USEABLE because I have a GOOD LOOK.

So apparently my dream of being famous has taken its first hit....Not I could careless what that money hungry prideful bitch thinks (that's the angry part of me). Jenny and I decided that they possibly had already cast one of the parts I was trying out for and the other part, which I sucked at (this is the reasonable part talking) was the one they needed. So, whatever Jenny and I are going to audition for Popcorn tonight at 7. So who knows it could be my big break and my ticket into Juliard(sp?) if they even have theatre there which I have no idea.

Oh yeah Jenny was told that her reading was superb and she is very cute and that the director will definitely use her in future plays. The directors acting classes were not mentioned.

Now I go to sleepy and hope that there is a crazy, sullen, quiet, demented part in popcorn.

One Step Closer

2004-09-16T03:48:06Z

I got an Amp for my bass today. Awesome so I started to play around with it and I cannot wait until I can actually play some songs! I was doing some more work on my song in the shower this morning (nice visual huh?) and I think the lines from my last entry will be the chorus. Here is the rest of what I came up with:

No sex, No drinking, No drugs.
The world should be filled with kisses and hugs.
She hides behind the words of her Baptist preacher Daddy:
"Certain words should not be said: shit, damn, fuck, and especially G-O-D."
(I don't feel to strongly about that last line)
And with these words in part I agree,
but definitely not wholeheartedly.
Because...

She pretends to be stupid but she doesn't know,
That when she speaks her stupidity really shows.
On every little freckle that covers her little face,
Sometimes I wonder where she belongs in the human race.(I tweaked the chorus a bit)

slientbutdeadly @ 2004-09-15T00:14:00

2004-09-15T04:24:31Z

I have a bass!!!!!!!!!!! Not a fish mind you, but a guitar. It is awesome I feel like I am closer to being famous now that I have something concrete. And tonight on my way back home I have made the decision to start writing songs. Lyrics for now because I know nothing of music itself. I also would like to call my band The Bodhisattvas. So here is a lyric that I have come up with it will be part of the first song I am writing:

She pretends to be stupid but she doesn't know,
That when she speaks her stupidity really shows.
On every little freckle that covers her naive little face,
Sometimes I wonder what place people such as this have in the human race.

That's it for now sit (or stand) in amazement at my talent!!! I am not sure about a title yet. Something like Nicety (pronounced Nice-e-ti) or (Oooo just got inspired for a good album name False Karma) The Princess of the Kindess. I dunno I guess I have time to work on these things.

That is all the creativity you receive for tonight!

Fame, I'm gonna live forever...(I wish)

2004-09-14T04:35:06Z

Well, first things first I am no longer an education major. I am now majoring in History and minoring in religious studies. So, that means no classes for this semester. It's been weird so far. I am use to always having something to do. So I am looking for a full time job.

Anyway the reason I got on to post is because I feel so daunted by life right now. Jenny and I were looking at this guy's blog (he went to trinity) and I felt like I needed to start writing more down. I mean I would like to put more of myself out there and really start using this online journal.

The reason for my title is that I am trying to figure that very thing out right now. Everything I see lately makes me desire fame. I want to be famous so badly. I want the lights the cameras. But let me clarify something it is not for the money......Yes I said it I'm not in it for the money. I want to be in it for the feeling it gives me. The rush I get when I think about being famous being on tv. I have this fir inside me that burns. I do not know how I will get there, but I will. And if I don't I want to know when I die that I did my best to achieve it. I don't know if it will be through music acting or even maybe stand-up but something will be my vehicle. I would like it to be music I want to have a band I want to make music, but I kinda need to learn how first. Oh well there is time I hope.

I am glad that I have Jenny though. She is fully supportive, because her dreams follow mine we both desire more than what we have right now, and that not meant materialistically, but rather we want to make something of our lives we want to reach people we want to be known for something. We also want to travel the world. I want to visit everywhere europe, india, the middle east, EVERYWHERE. I've only got one of these lives and I feel as though I better use it to its fullest extent.

Many of these feelings were sparked by one recent thing that happened to Jenny and I we saw Garden State. It was to say it in one word INCREDIBLE. The greatest movie I have ever seen. It is the one movie that I think I could watch on a regular basis for the rest of my life and absolutely enjoy it every time. It just made me feel so great inside.

Goodnight all and to a better tomorrow

I'm Back

2004-08-29T16:01:52Z

So, I took an LJ break for the summer which looking back was a bad idea. THe reason for that is that I had a lot of interesting work stories I could have been telling.

One sticks out in my mind and I will tell that to you now.....A woman was complaining about or height restriction at the waterpark, so our supervisor Travis came down to talk with her. She said, "So, you're telling me that a 17 year old who is this tall (she holds her hand out about waist high) could come in the waterpark?" Travis replies, "Well what you're talking about would be a midget and yes midgets adhere to our height restriction, so they can come in." It was the funniest thing ever and the lady freaked out tried to say that Travis was discrimintating against midgets.

Another good one happened yesterday. I told this little girl that she needed to have her mom come inside the waterpark with her. So, she goes to get her mom who is watching the baby brother. I look at the mom and cannot believe my eyes because she is wearing a black Girls Gone Wild tank top. Then she proceeds to say that she did not plan on having to come inside the waterpark, but after she says this she takes off her clothes to reveal a bikini underneath. Which doesn't make any sense if you did not plan on coming in then why wear a bathing suit? (Quick note here why is it called a bathing suit? We don't bath in them?...Do we?) So after all this happened I was imagining what the GIrls GOne WIld video would say..... Check out this 26 year old mother of two from jacksonvile florida as she goes WILD!

ANyway I had two classes over the summer both were joke classes. I got an A in one. And what pisses me off is I could have gotten an A no matter what i did, because I was the only guy in my class. The teacher gave me perfect scores on everything, because I was the only guy and it pissed me off! I got a D in the other class because it was online and ended fourdays early which I did not know about so I was missing three assignments, yeah not a good thing.

Fall semester has started and things look promising.

I was happy to here about the recent XA drama, and I am wondering if that is bad? I do not think so because it is our nature to wish bad on those who have wronged us, but isn't our nature inherently bad? I dunno, but either way I'm happy about it.

Jenny and I ware thinking of starting up our own gropu on campus iwth the help of a few friends and acquaintances(sp?) called the LCS: Liberal Christian Soceity. I am excited about it and I hoep we can really make it happen.

Well, thats all for now hommies!

Oh Happy Day!!!!!!!

2004-06-17T00:44:41Z

Did ya hear Jenny and Joel are getting married in a year!
That's right you haven't become dislexic or near-sighted, I said a year, twelve months(well thirteen), 365 days( ok 402)!!!!!!!!!!!! Isn't that great everyone should congratulate the happy couple.

Right so Jenny and I have moved up the wedding date. Basically we could not stand to be engaged for another year and nine months......Living with our parents not so good..........We are both 20 and our parents still treat us like we're 16......So we have moved up the date and the planning has begun!!! We are also attempting to let the savings begin.....We want to be loaded by next summer so we will be able to move into a huge house and buy a ferrari.....That's not true, we just want to have enough to let us live in an aprtment for about nine months while Jenny works full time to support us until I graduate and can get a full time job and then we will both use our money to buy a house.......Sounds wonderful right?
We bought a wedding planner book and we are going to try to work on getting everything done that we need to get done for month number twelve...One of the items is to come up with a budget which should prove to be intertesting, but I know we can do it.........I just cannot wait to be able to come home and see my WIFE, not my girlfriend, not my fianceé, MY WIFE!!!!!

Other than that stuff is mostly boring.....Saw Steppford Wives and that was dissapointing.....SOrry if that discourages anyone...........Saw Saved! and was pleasantly surprised by its overall message.........I have been working and that is not so bad I had CPR training yesterday and that was fun the other two guys who were with me were joining in on making fun of the training video which was as corny as possible..........I mean seriously they know no one really acts like these people do..........Uh..........I still owe my mom about 700 bucks and that really sucks......I have to buy Jenny's b-day presents, but that does not suck...........Oh I remember what i want to talk about...............

SO about two weeks ago Jenny and I took my nephew out, well we were asking him if he liked any girls yet and Jenny or me I dunno said or boys.....He said that liking boys was gross...Well, Jenny and I felty a need to educate the little tyke....So we explained to him our opinion that being gay is normal and that we do not think it is against the Bible (because his father has trained him that it is MEGA against the Bible and that gay people will burn in Hell)......And in the end I told him if he was ever unsure about something that he should find out for himself by researching............
Well about 4 days later my Dad says he needs to talk to me about something and says that he knows I have my beliefs and opinions but Mickey(nephew) is Michael's(brother) son and he told his dad that uncle Joel said it is okay to be gay......My dad tries to tell me that I was wrong in doing this and I explain that i was not going to lie to Mickey and tell him to go ask his dad or something lame like that..........My dad goes on to say that my brother was soo mad he wanted to "beat my butt" And I said whatever and went to my room where Jenny was waiting..I freaked out and got real mad and she told me to go back out and tell them how I felt.........I told them that I was mad that they thought it was alright for my brother to want to beat me up and that he was okay for thinking that.........THey tried to still tell me I was wrong and I said that if Michael had a problem with something I did he knows my cell number and should have called me.............
So I called his cell and told him to call me because I wanted to talk to him.........He called........He was all pissy and telling me not to lie to his son and that I should not call the bible a liar..........And that he wasn't going to let his kids be around me anymore if I was going to lie to them..........I tried to explain myself and my opinion and he went so far as to ask me this question:
JOEL ARE YOU GAY?
Am I gay!!!!!!!!??????????!!!!!!!!!!..........I told him yes that I was engaged to a woman and I was gay, what the crap kinda question is that? AM I a gay?.........Anyway the conversation continued and he asked If I would pray with him while I was in the middle of talking and then he began praying OUT LOUD OVER THE PHONE WHILE I WAS TRYING TO HAVE A DISCUSSION WITH HIM!!!!!!!.........I tried to continue speaking while he was doing his little holy roller act. but he wouldn't listen.......Finally he said ahmen and that he would tlka to me later and HUNG UP ON ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I couldn't believe it or could I I wasn't sure........
Later he called my mom and she was able to "talk some sense into him" ANd he apologized TO HER, not me.........If all this weren't enough the day I picked up my nephew i met my brother's "future wife" who he had known for approximately oh eight days (God told them to get married) she has two kids who call Michael Daddy and my niece and nephew call her Mommy Ahhhhh!!!!!! What world do I live in?!?!?!? None of my family namely my parents wnat to touch the issue or talk to him about it, but whatever my neice is finally going to be living in Jax again and that is something positive.........
So Sunday was a family party (Father's Day, Holli's B-day(mysis) and Jenny's B-day)......Guess what my brother gives Jenny...The Power of Forgivness by Joyce Meyers.......What the crap honestly and then he puts a note that says:
"Jenny may this book be a blessing to you and allow you to become the women that God wnats you to be"
Yeah who is he to tell Jenny something like this, and by the way the women is not a typo that is waht he wrote, he wrote women.......Then he gives my sister another book by Joyce Meyers entitled how to be a better person!!!! Who does he think he is!?!?!?!?!?! And the craziest part is my parents could careless!!!!
One thing I noticed there is something about the name Michael I do not like......The two I know the best are both over zealous, pray at inappropriate times, talk directly to God, know the location of Jesus constantly, are 100% sure of when Satan is using something or someone, close minded, stone cold republican FREAKS!!!!

Well, I think that is it for this post it turned out to be longer than I thought it would be.

On a minor note a received a little, well not that little, injury at work last Saturday.....Here's the story I told everybody, I was oepning the front gate and it got caught on the concrete and swung back and hit me in the face splitting my nose open.....This is partially true, I didn't tell anyone(except Jenny) that I was riding it and that is why it got caught on the concrete and why it hit me in the nose.........Luckily nothing broken and a very vauable lesson was learned:
No riding on large metal gates that have the chance of hitting you in the face.

Farewell for now from SLientbutdeadly!!!!!!!

Lazy Post

2004-06-04T03:44:00Z

Funny this is a lazy post and I don't even post enough to be making a lazy post......Well I realized today that my online class started Tuesday so i spent an hour when i got home getting that set-up............Our first assignment was a get to know each other things so I am just posting that for everyone to read:

Well, for starters i am a Pre-K Primary major at UNF. I would like to graduate with my Bachelors in Education and possibly move onto a Master's or go back to school and receive another Bachelor's in Photography. I have been attending college for two years now, and I expect to graduate in December of 2005.

I am employed by the City of acksonville and I work at Kids Kampus. Some of you may have heard of it. It is an educational park downtown and I work as a lifeguard during the summer and a part time educator during the school year.

The easiest answer to the persoanl question would be, I'm engaged to be married! I cannot wait. We are planning to be married on March 4, 2006. Her name is Jenny and we have been together for 4 and a half years on June 6.

My computer skills are pretty much at the intermediate level I can function well on most programs and usually offer assitance on most. I am strong in Word and fairly good with PowerPoint. I have a little trouble with Access, but I don't think that is part fo this course?
I could always use help. I have trouble just as much as the next guy or girl.

Additional Comments
Name: Joel Sumner
Age: 20
Religion: Christianity
Political Party: Green
Pro-Choice
Pro-Homosexuality
Anti-NRA and anythings to do with guns (I don't like Charlton Heston)
Anti-Bush Administration

That should do it for an introduction I think.

That's my post cause that is all i want to post, Bye

Politics

2004-05-12T04:00:39Z

Whoa Awesome I went to the John Kerry rally today at the landing!!!! It was so exciting and not to mention fun............When he was coming to the stage I felt like I was at a really great concert or something.........He talked alot about health insurance because that was his major subject for the rally, but he also spoke about education, the war, and a little about the economy.........Even though all of the Democrats there were speaking down about Bush before Kerry came out he himself chose only to mention negative things caused by the Administration and not to tear down bush himself ( I also saw a Kerry tv ad that merely mentioned why he would make a good president whereas both Bush commercials I have seen talk negatively about Kerry )............Jenny and I left a little early cause it started to sprinkle

I have one question why are people so sensitive about Politics and Religion? And not only that why do people insit on converting everybody else?...........I myself am a Liberal Christian and I claim the Green Party (in general) when it comes to politics, but I can safely say that I never try to convert anyone to my beliefs when I talk to them............I mention this because Jenny's mom was just floored by the fact that Jenny was supporting Kerry and she even got mad that Jenny agreed with his policy on Gay Marriage, and I mean mad she gave Jenny this stare that would have given most men a heart attack.......I was shocked and wondered why it was such a big deal that her daughter disagreed with her?

Secondly when I came home my mother chose to point out that I was a supporter of Kerry (Duh she saw me right before I went to the rally) my dad was there and said, in a joking manner, that he couldn't believe it I use to be a Republican and now I am a kerry supporter.............My reply was that I am Green and he said "Green Peace?" (like he's retarded or something) Anywho my mom for some reason interested in starting a debate between my father and I said but doesn't he believe in gay marriage and I said yes and I agree.........This caused a big problem, because my mom asked, How can you be a christian and support that? I said that I have found no substantiating evidence in the Bible that condemns homosexuality(I thought that would throw them off).............My dad freaks out and says bring me the bible and I'll show you.........I told him that if he was going to show me Sodom and Gomorra then he better realize those same people wanted to have sex with angels...........He mentioned that a man shall not lay with another man and I said that if you are going to listen to that then we better kill all the Jaguar players because they are defiling the Sabbath and you can't listen to one thing in the Old Testament and ignore the rest............so he gave up on using the bible in his argument and said the best quote ever: "If everyone was gay there would be no kids."

Beautiful, wonderful, so articulate, I was amazed.....I just said that I don't think everyone should be gay, but those who are aren't wrong

So that's about it Goodnight

Optional

2004-05-10T20:58:00Z

Well, Jenny is in class for an hour and a half so I figured I write

First off let me talk about my big dissapointment......I got my tax return FINALLY and I was expecting like 800 bucks, but I instead received.....284, that's a big difference so that was really really upseting on a lot of different levels

Work
I love my job.....I just want to get that out of the way......I hate bad parents
So, at work we have certain rules that seem to be really hard for people to follow.....One such rule is that children under six HAVE TO HAVE AND ADULT to enter the waterpark......I see this as something that makes sense, but most parent see it as an inconvenience......I mean I have a two year old alone in the water park and I am the one who has to guide him out when it is time to rotate and then I have to watch him walk away to be possibly kidnapped.........Another rule is that no child over 62 inches can come in.......I just want to say that this rule is absolutely necessary otherwise we would have teenagers in there out of control killing the toddlers.......Once again though parents do not like this idea and decide to voice this by cussing at me and encouraging their children to complain as well.......The last rule that seems to be ahrd for people is the little swimmers rule......we do not allow diapers, they get puffy when they get wet and stuff comes out and clogs our filter......So this one is trouble too, but not as much as the other two...........And the last thing I have to say about all of this is that about 85 percent of these adults are African American (I'll say the pc term)......Do I have a problem with black people no, not at all, but I am witness to a pattern where I work and the majority of the black poepl I see there I do have a problem with

School
There is actually nothing wrong with school so far today was the first day and my professor is cool......The class seems like it will be pretty demanding though.....oh and I am of course the only guy

Family
I hate my brother......He is the worst man, if I should even consider him that, on this planet.....Not to mention the absolute WORST father! OK first off he shipped his daughter off to Tampa to live with his mother-in-law (who left her her daughter when she was like 5 or something and that same daughter, the mother of my neice and nephew is running from the law as my nphew will quickly tell you) and her husband (who is a sick pedephile who I hope has not done anything sick and disgusting to my neice).......The reason he sent my neice away was because he wanted her to be around a woman because she is about to go through puberty and he doesn't know how to deal with al that "women" stuff.......I say figure it out!

As if this isn't enough he then proceeds to send his son to live with his mother(my dad's ex-wife) and his reasoning for this is that m,y nephew is being harassed on the bus and at school so he needs to go somewhere else to school......I say you get off your lazy you know what and drive him to school......My nephew was a latch-key kid when he lived with my brother

OK so now that he is free of his children he has decided to live life.....He is starting his own business and making pretty good money good enough to buy himself a used ford expedition SUV and have lettering placed on the back window for his business.......Hmmm he should be saving money to buy a house for his children to live in with him (sorry forgot he lives in a trailer)......So I think that is enough proof that he is a horrible father, and ample reason for me to key his car

FInally he uses God......He tries to cover up all this with being a "man of God"......This man of god image comes with the inability to have an open mind......He is a classic blind republican and believes whatever the preacher tells him to believe...........Example at my house for mother's day the tv was on and I turned it to Queer Eye for the Straight Guy, this was in purpose to see what he would do, He proceeds to ask what the show is saying is this that Queer show? I said yes queer eye for the straight guy......His reply was another question (I think this is hillarious) Queer Guy for the straight guy?......I just repepted the name of the show in mild disgust........He then truns to my brother in law and asks him, Hey Ray are you into that Queer stuff?......queer stuff very intelligent wording on that one........He asks my siter the same thing.........He then talks bout being surrounded by gays at some club when he was younger and says that Jacksonville is the gay capital of Florida, my brother in law pointed out Key West as taking that award......So he is basically a huge homophobe as well

Jenny came up with this great idea.....She said that we should have Wes over to my house when my brother is there just to see what kinda stupid stuff he would say or do

Anyway that is about all for today, thanks for reading

Depressing Dream

2004-05-07T13:27:00Z

I want to write this down so I don't forget it........Don't let the title of this entry fool you the dream was far from depressing, for the most part

It started out with Jenny and I getting married and we did so in the county courthouse which had a mini chapel in it so the wedding was really small......After that we went on our honey moon and I got Jenny pregnant.........except the day after the wedding she was like nine months pregnant.........I get to ya know feel her belly and everything and it is wonderful, also at ibe point her stomach was like transparent and I could see the baby.............So then one day I don't know how it worked out in the dream her water breaks and she goes to this delivery place not a hospital........I don't stay with her instead i go to this church and I am in the lobby (which was kinda like the Trinity lobby) and there is this nice fountain so I get down next to it and pray that Jenny will be safe and the baby will be ok...........Jenny calls me on my cell phone and tells me she had the baby and that she is looking at it right now..........I go to the place but Jenny is outside and she says that she lied to me on the phone she wasn't looking at the baby because the doctors took it away and said that something was wrong with it and they would have to keep it another day for some procedure..........Jenny and I end up at this place with Jackie, Mike, Jarret, and some other Chialpha people........We tell them about oour wedding and baby and Jackie says congratualtions, but then she Jarret and Mike take us into this room and try to tell us that we are too young for all this and that we should have waited and all this stuff

Then i woke up and felt slightly depressed because Jenny and I weren't married and did not have a baby, but then again that meant there was no baby with problems, but it was still depressing to wake up and realize we weren't marrie and did not have our first child

Oh well got to go to work Bye

Life's a Bitch and then you die

2004-05-07T04:26:46Z

It's true life's a bitch and then you die...........We hope beyond hoep that this will never be true but in that hope we confrim the cliche

So the reason I feel this way......This sumer I am working because I am poor, why is being poor bad because I do not have any money to spend on Jenny..........Problem, because I am working I have no time to spend with Jenny and therefore no oppurtunity to spend this money I am making on Jenny.........I am confirming the cliche by hoping to have enough money to take Jenny places but by hoping(working) I am canceling out any possible time to prevent life from being a bitch

Reason number two school............Ok so Jenny and I are taking summer classes and these will be taken on the days we are not working.........THe reason for these classes is to make sure we graduate in time to get married...........In order to get married on time we have to take these classes and further push away any time to spend together.............In other words hopeing to get married on time is making life a bitch

Back to work I am working now and that is a bitch.............I have horrible hours all this month (10am-7pm) and when I go there and I am in the waterpark it is either empty which makes the time go by sooo slow or there are a ton of people arguing with me and complaining about there "baby" (12yearold) being too tall to go in the waterpark and axing me what I got for the older chiren to do.......My answer NOTHING its KIDS kampus not pre-teen campus go to the beach!!

On a lighter note Jenny and I saw envy tonight and it was really, really funny and Christopher Walken made the movie...........After that we ate Steak and SHake and contemplated a summer spent apart

Goodnight and may life be a bitch to you all Bah Humbug

Hmmm...Did I say bitch enough? How bout a few more bitch, bitch, bitch....hahaha I am typing it so it makes it okay, plus Jenny you're the only one who will read this hehehehehe!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh and Jill but I know you don't care if I type bitch in my live journal

Bye,
ME baby All ME

No Need To Specify

2004-05-04T05:56:45Z

Hmmm...Where do i start? I guess I will start with what Jenny inspired me to write about.

Friends.........
Well, I too have been wanting for Jenny and I to be abel to find some friends....Its not that we aren't satisfied with hanging out with each other its that when you both agree on so much its hard to dicuss what heaven will be like because you know what the other person will say........But on the subject of Jenny she is wonderful, she makes my life worth living..honestly........If I did not have her in my life I really would not have a reason to get out of bed in the morning......Without Jenny life would be like a waiting room at the doctor's with no television and only old issues of Chemistry Today on the coffee tables.......Jenny paints my world. She adds color, excitment, joy, love, LIFE......So anyway there is something I have always envied about her (besides that she is a renaisance woman, GOOD at everything) she has always been able to have friends........This is something i have always had trouble with sure I've had em' but I've never had any really good ones......My best one has been Trey and it realy really sucked when he moved away he was like what Sashani is for Jenny, he was awesome.........After Trey left I had Alex who was really cool and funny and a great guy to hang out with, BUT he of course had friends already and those friends did drugs and so he started to do them too...........Also, during High School there was Robbie. Robbie is a great guy and I would love to be able to be better friends with him, but it is soo hard to keep in touch with him, he goes to college in Mississippi

Finally when I got into ChiALpha I found some great guys too......There was Lucas who seemed like a guy after my own heart, kind, treated women properly, and close to God but he had a really tight group of firends already so that made it hard, not to mention his fan club......Vince was also another great candidate for an awesome guy to be friends with, but he is unfortunately moving and that will be making things difficult, plus some of our interests di not really coincide such as sports, politics, stuff like that.......Then there is Trey (I will call him TreyII) I really had high hopes for this one, but they have been partially cruushed. Trey is awesome we have almost all the same interests, are hobbies are similar and some of the events in our lives have coincided....Now the problems: whenever I am around Trey i tend to feel a certain uncomfrotableness(dont care if thats a word) because Trey is so cosmopolitan and I am not; Then of course he is in a new relationship, and not that I think it is wrong or bad, and some people tend to submerse themselves in theri relationships when they frist start dating and from what i can tell Trey is one of those poeple...Overall I think I am still optimistic on this one.........Finally Wes, Wes is Great with a capitol G, but we haven't really had time to spend together and I am therefore not sure if we have that much in common so we will have to see about how that goes.

Now then I have only mentioned men....And I think that is the problem......I have never eally bee a big fan of men ever since I met my father. He is not the best model of manhood, oh wait yes he is and that my friends is unfortunate.......So I think my mistake all along has been attempting to find a best friend of the same sex....This is where my good friend Jill comes in. Jill is the greatest, we have I think an 80% 20% on the interest score 80 being things in common and she is dependable, caring, realistic, fun, funny, and lots of toher stuff that is good........She is the greatest and I think Jenny and I have finally found a good friend, but Jill of course has to go and live in Orlando and be graduating in December..way to go!!! Oh well i don't see any of this being a probelm for the friendship......So now that I have thouroughly covered my friendship histroy and bored everyone to death I will move on

Mean Girls
Oh sooo funny and a pictureseque film for our society today. After walking out of the movie I just looked around and said to jenny how it was funny that the movie was so accurate.....It also made me reminice(sp?) high school.....I wished I had had friends like the main character does, but noone at Trinity was Gay or Liberal or Goth and that just sux......I also thought about how I wish I could go back to hgih school being as liberal as I am now and being able to intellingently stand up for my rights and beliefs, but oh well no time machine and God does everything for a reason.......although its fun to think about yelling at my French teacher that I am not going to signing day and respect some jock who gets to breeze his way through high school because his dad beat him when he was younger and forced him to be good at a given sport.......Aaaaa sports a drain on American Soceity, but I will save that for another post

Ella Enchanted
Anoher really good movie......It modernized medieval life in a really successful way, like in one scene they are at a mall (a prime example of the modernizing) and they get onto an escallator which is operated by two men cranking a wheel, how funny!.....Anyway it was very successful and it was soo funnny that she had to do everything she was told, a scary yet intriguing concept

Theories
Since my live journal seems to be a little more successful tan my blog because people are maybe sorta coming and reading it I am going to post some of my theories and hopefully be inspired to write some new ones here is the first one I am posting:
Lincoln Theory
Lincoln would not have been remebered as much as he is if he were not assasinated. Here is where I am going with this. Lincoln was never a believer in the elimination of slavery (for those of you who didn't know the Emancipation Proclamation did not free the slaves). The only reason he changed his mind, and he never fully changed his mind, on the issue was because of the Civil War. I think if he hadn't have been killed then slavery would have lasted longer and he would have been re-elected and possibly been pushed by Americans to end slavery, but that is not likely because most northerners feared the end of slavery. They thought it would cause massive race war and that blacks would take jobs in the north. My point is his death caused a radical movement towards freeing the slaves because of animosity towards southerners.

I think that is all that I wanted to say so I will go ahead and cut it off here......Sorry if this was too long of a post and I will post again soon watch out because I am: slient but deadly!!!!

Bye Bye
Joel

Boring

2004-04-28T22:57:59Z

Today was boring well sorta, well not too bad.........I do not really have any complaints about today except for the attitude of Vickie and how she is treating my fiance.....I mean it is totally childish not to mention disrespectful not to mention you are talking down to the woman I love and that is inclined to make me like you even less then I already didn't.......Other than that Vickie is wasting her breath, first off because she is wrong and second becasue she is really wrong

Anyway got to tell Jill and Wes goodbye today....Jill is going home and Wes is mvoing to an apartment (and needs a roomate if anyone is interested)......Jill said she is coming back up at least twice this summer because of Van Helsing and SpiderMan 2.......I think she'll be up here every weekend just to see me, because who wouldn't want to?

I had a literacy final which was half bs'ed and a thorough waste of my time, I mean why don't professors just have us write a paper or something if half are test is going to be short answer and essay?

Finally, i also had an interesting dream which had Mike in it......He was faking this injury and was wearing badnages around his ribs which were connected to a lsing around his arm, and he also had a bandage around his thumb like the one Paula Abdul had around her thumb on American Idol.........Other than that there was this brochure about inflatable toys for your kids like this limousine that had an electric engine

Unlike Jenny I don't do commentary on my dreams I leave that to my future psychologist....The one I will see when all the crap my family did to me when i was younger finally sinks in/resurfaces

That's it for today.............bored yet?

slientbutdeadly @ 2004-04-27T16:36:00

2004-04-27T20:58:54Z

so my big event of the day was the stupid, waste of my time, boring, culture fair in TESOL......Ok so maybe I just hated it because my teacher did the worst job ever of eplaining it.....Well, actually correction I must have been deaf dumb, blind and stupid the day she did do the explaining....I did not realize we had to have brochures for the whole class I had one for the teacher I thought that was sufficient.....Not to metnion we had to do a ten minute presentation on our country of study and I didn't realize that either...if there is one thing I hate it is being unprepared for something and I was unprepared.....I actually knew nothing about my country of study because Jenny did the brochure for me...(So sue me not like I don't have other crap to do)....anyway two other girls in my group took up the whole ten minutes anyway so i will probably get a really bad grade, if we are graded individually, or a really good grade if the whole group gets the same grade

That was the biggest issue for me today, well besides the fact that I was late to nearly everything today....which wasn't very fair to Jenny since she was the one waiting on me

So XA, XA, XA when will you cease to complain about the desicions of others and how they are affecting YOU?!?!?!?! I have failed to witness at any point in time any of the GENERAL populace of Chi Alpha (because I know there are those few who would say oooo, oooo I have taken time....your forgetting about ME and MY time that I have taken from MY life) taking the time to wonder how the whole situation is affecting ME or JENNY......No! and forgive me if I feel like being a little selfish, but I am just following the lead of everyone else......So anyways enough just stop complaining.....Oh you guys took down the website (By the way everyone still seems unconviced that was ME), oh you guys quit Chi Alpha, Oh you guys hate everyone, Oh you guys are not being very fair.........WELL I wish YOU GUYS would just shut up about your loathsome little petty and selfish complaints!!!!.......It's over okay we have quit.....you are getting your other website up and running....and don't forget the best part you have my 836 (around there) pictures that I took MY time to take with MY camera....you can consider those a gift and I am sure you will be happy to use them without feeling any sympathy for the abuse of my time and energy that wen into taking them and making the cd...........Well, I am at a loss for words beyond that, and as a wise woman once said, "It's my journal and I can express my feelings if I want to."

You guys really know how to piss somebody off......sheesh

And i kinda understand why half of the group is inactive I kinda wish I would have followed their lead a long time ago.....actually wish i had never joined!